Matrix theory

This entry may quickly remove any credibility I may or may not have had. This has been a thought bouncing around in my head for some time. I've shared it with a couple people. Mostly the reaction is something like, "ok. I guess I get that." So, I suppose this is a disclaimer to say: I know I sound crazy. And I know there are many philosophical points I may be negating. And hopefully anyone reading this will leave any commentary or arguments they wish.
Moving on...

I really feel like life is like the Matrix. No, I do not think that I'm really in a pod being incubated by A.I. for energy. I don't believe the Matrix is real. It's more a parallel to how I feel right now than anything.

To explain...

In the Matrix, when Neo takes the pill (red or blue I can't remember) he is enlightened to reality, life as he knew it took a completely different form and meaning. What he had known to be true his entire life was in fact an illusion. It was not truth. Where upon receiving this truth, Neo could then manipulate his experience in the Matrix. I.e. Leaping over buildings, dodging bullets, etc...
In this sense, I have been enlightened to truth. I understand the reality of human design. We have purpose outside of what we would choose if left to our vices. My world view will never be a "normal" one because I will always filter everything through this truth.
Now then, when the people enlightened to the reality of the Matrix reentered (by way of plugging themselves in), and were by chance shot or harmed in other ways, their mind could not distinguish experience from reality. They knew their bodies were safely back in the chairs. But the sensory experience of a bullet rupturing their body was too overwhelming and their minds convinced their bodies that they were dead.
Similarly, I live in this world, regardless of what I know about it. I have experiences of happiness as well as of pain. I know that when I have pain that is inflicted by another person, it is not necessarily the person that is my enemy. It is a source outside of who that person was meant to be - possibly human nature. I know my worth and stability can never come from another human. But there are experiences so overwhelming that the reality of truth outside that experience seems nigh impossible. People, what they say and do, affect me. Experiences and my surroundings affect me. My own thoughts affect me! Very often so much so, that my mind cannot override and distinguish experience from reality.
I guess, simply put, reason and logic don't always address or coincide with emotions.
Too long in my life did I completely stifle my emotions. I looked only at what I knew to be true, no matter what I felt about it. Feelings, after all, can be very deceiving! Can be. But aren't always. God gives us emotion on purpose. He wants us to have sensory experience. And I do believe women have very acute senses or intuition about certain situations. However, emotions are a good indicator, not a reliable guide. (A wise woman once told me that. Thanks Lil B.)
For anyone that may be reading this, I apologize for my jumbled thoughts. I'm learning. And hope to always continue learning. So if anyone has any input, I would love to hear it. Even if it's just to tell me I'm nuts. I'll take it.